I'll Move Out of the Way for Her, Too

I need a hug.

Not because anything has happened or because I am sad or whatever.

I am just craving human contact. Some personal attention. A fucking warm, comforting hug.

I'm lonely.

I'm not sad today--today is a good day. I actually had a good week, for as long as it was. Worked with some wonderful people who I truly enjoy being stuck on a truck with, that made things so much better.

I kind of got the day off on Sunday, and got to hang around corporate getting paid to watch Dexter. What gets better than that? I did run a little around the hospitals, and I did have to drive a firefighter home and then turn back around because the same crew that ran the code he assisted on, left their BP cuffs on scene and the fire captain picked them up. Other than that, I didn't do much, and it was good.

Today is my day off this week. Bonnie is back, so after two shifts on HPC tomorrow and Thursday, I'll be back with Bonnie on our regular shift.

Two weeks from today, classes start.

That's pretty much it. I am going to try my hand again at writing something profound or intelligent or, at the least, eloquent. I am not going to post it here. But, I am hoping it will become something worthy of showing people.

No unsettling dreams last night, but I still didn't sleep soundly. I don't know what it is, but I wish it would stop. I wish I could just sleep straight through.

I think I am lonely, and I don't know how to remedy the situation. Some days, I just wish I could find love.

Love and nothing else.

I Never Know What to Do With My Hands

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